The Long Fall.....

I wonder..... Is this what people call the fall from grace???
On the heights, the path is full daggers...
Did I knowingly step on a dagger??
Thereby precipitating my fall??
And if so??
Is the blame is solely mine??
Does my motive matters??


Questions...
Questions plague me nowadays....
My questions....
Other's questions....
Inner questions....
Outside Questions....

Questions.... Questions.... Questions....

So many questions.. There must be answers for all this??
Sadly for me...
There is none...

YET...

Should I be more selfish??
Should I be more selfless??
Should I just be me??



No answer....

Never expected any....
Not after this blasted silence for so long....


After so long.....
I'm still falling.....
Help..
Help..

I'm falling......

And yet..
Silence reigns....

What must I do??
I'm troubled....
I'm disturbed....
I'm haunted....


I'm painfully aware of how much I sound like a whining bastard...

However... I am one.... A bastard I mean..
Figuratively.... Not literally.. I came from a legal and holy matrimony....

That should clear any misunderstandings....
And if not?? I don't have the energy to discuss it....


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