Hola again...

hey hey..

I was absent for the last few weeks due to health reasons. Sorry if I disappointed anyone looking fo new updates.. Hehehe.... Anyway, It's THAT time of the year again. Yes, ladies and gentlemen its Ramadan again!! And I Laz is ur host for today.. So, Ramadan... What is it?? A month of hunger and thirst?? Of no slaking ur thirst before the alotted time?? NO!!!!
It is a month of repentance. A month of Baraqah. A holy month. A sacred month. It is so sacred that we are forbidden to even wage war unless forced upon us....

ME...
I'm working as you all know I presume. However, my work time has been adjusted to account for Ramadan. Its now from 8 pm to 5.30 am.. Yes.. From break fast to Imsa'....
Heh.... The last few weeks has seen quite an upheaval.... From the local politics, to international politics...

However, with limited time available, I'll make comment bout those some other time..
So yeah.. I'm back... heh




The Fallen...
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Melatah.....

Haih.... I see so many bad response in the papers.
However. I'm curious about one thing. Are they the majority or are they a vocal minority?
Coz in the news last night, there was a poll bout whether UiTM should be opened for Non-Bumis or not?
Guess the answer..
96% agreed..
Taking into account that maybe some Non-Bumis also voted, the result is still too abnormal.
So, is all these brouhaha in the papers a genuine sentiment? Or just a too vocal minority?
As for the UiTM students demonstration, it was put on the news. Guess what?
I didn't see any angry faces at all. Some of them were even laughing.... How could you laugh if you were serious bout the issue??

Know what I think?
I think those students just put on the show so that they can say they did put up a resistance. Besides, the demonstration was just for a short 2 hours. Short I say compared to the Forum Memeluk Islam last Saturday which had people demonstrating for quite some time. Thats serious. A mere two hours and laughing?
I don't think the demonstration were serious. Just people getting caught up in the hype.

Fakes...
And all these responses.. I would say they're just political in spirit. After all, Its the PR MB which made the statement. So it's normal for them to smear..

Come on la....
You all were so proud of being a democratic and Islamic and God knows what else.
If so, give chance to the suggestion and review it.
If our prophet can consider and include the Jews in the Medina Charter, why not we as Muslim Malays consider and review this suggestion.
I said review. Acceptance is post review ok. After reviewing the viability of this suggestion, then we can decide whether to accept or not.
Oh, our prophet was forewarned of the Jews potential for treason, but he gave them a chance.
If our prophet can give JEWS a chance back then?
WHY CAN'T WE NOW??
Aren't we supposed to be so progressive and modern and HADHARI????


Think... And Think carefully....
We are Malays... And sometimes to protect something and keep it, We must sacrifice..
It is a case of winning by losing...






The Fallen...
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UiTM for Non-Bumis...... What do YOU think???

Today I read about a suggestion that 10% position in UiTM be opened for Non-Bumis. Now, isn't that a bit scandalous? It's bound to put a bee in some people's bonnet. Yet, I can't help thinking that there is yet some rasionale behind that suggestion. You say
"We are Malays, therefore we are entitled to special rights!"
I say
"Good for you, but why must we depend on special rights? Why not we beat the Non-Bumis in their field so special rights would be rendered redundant?We need those special rights so bad coz we're so bloody dependant on them. Anyone correct me if you think I'm wrong."
We have reached the point where we will collapse if those rights were revoked. In depending on those rights, we've made a crutch for ourselves, and now, we're scared to walk without the crutches, lest we fall.

P/S: Beat here is meant as defeat, not hit.

I ask you, What are we so afraid of bout having them Non-Bumis in our IPTA? They're good students, so at least some students will follow their example. Either from inspiration or from shame. Either from being friends or rival. I had a Chinese friend in high school. At first we fought each other, but later on, we acknowledged each other and it turned into an intense rivalry. Our rivalry revolved mostly around the Chemistry subject. Usually he would get highest and I below him. When I managed to draw with him, the heat is on. We competed for the title best Chem. We also did study group so that we can benefit from each other. Being the best doesn't mean you know everything and vice versa. That's an example I can pick about ways It might affect students. Heh....

As for lecturers, they might just be relieved enough to get students who for a change do work on time, consult them about studies and relieve their workload, instead of students who constantly ask for time extensions on overdue projects, complains bout the deadlines and on the whole is a pain in the neck. It might also improve their dedication and concentration on teaching. After all, when a Chinese student correct you, you know there's error somewhere, and I bet no lecturer likes to be shown how shallow their knowledge is compared to their students.

You say Malay students are already good?
I say that some of the good ones are arrogant. Which results in the norm of First and Second sem students being 4 pointers, and then dropping steadily.
Just to use an example, I had an acquaintance who is a good student in the First and Second sem. However, in the beginning of the 3rd sem, she got a boyfriend. Her performance dropped till it got to the point where a lecturer called for her and asked her to buck up coz her friends are worried bout her.
Know what she replied?
"I know my level and my friends level, so you don't have to worry."

Guess what. Arrogance. Just because she got good results in the 1st n 2nd sem she started to get a big head. Guess what she got for the 3rd sem?
A result lower than expected. Same level or worse as her friends.
So much for knowing your level eh?

Why do this happens? No competition. Chinese students don't get complacent. Got a 90? Push for 92. Got 92? Push for 94 and so on. This is Chinese way of studies. By the way, I'm talking based on experience with my friends. But I've yet to hear about Chinese students getting bad results. Malay students? Got 90? Ok already la! Next time sure got same also wat?....
Complacency.... Being in the safe zone.... Its as dangerous as being in the danger zone, only a different danger altogether..

I expect to get a lot of flak if anyone happens to read this post.
By the way. I'm a Malay. I'm not denigrating the Malays as a whole. But however, thats what I see. If you think otherwise, give me YOUR examples.

This post is of about my opinion only.
There is no right or wrong. Too Subjective.





P/S: This post was written on monday, however, due to time factor, only Today I posted it







The Fallen...
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Weird Dream......

Had a really weird dream last night.... I was fighting waves of zombies wit sum friends... God it was scary...... The fight happened in some sort of big mansion, with only one way in and one way to the top.... I was at the window.... And I was blasting away like there was no tomorrow.... Which in the dream, probably is the case.... Anyway, I was blasting away at those outside while my colleagues was defending the main doors... It was so vivid... remember in the dream having to shoot a colleague before he turned.... It was his request since he was already bitten in the last wave.... Some of the ways to kill them zombies was to shoot em in the head, dismember them so that they lose blood, or just plain burn em to crisp.... I mainly shot em in the head.... But there were times when I had to hack with a katana.... Thats a japanese samurai sword for those not in the now.... Where did I get katana I have no idea.... Those moments were the scariest.... Imagine fighting hand to hand, with every moment being your possible last.... Every stray bite possibly the one that infects you....

We were fighting to survive.... There were even moments when the zombies managed to get into the house.... But we managed to push em out again.... The dead zombies we burned using liquid plasma.... Very fiery...Again... Don't ask where we got em... I'll just assume I was some sort of special forces tasked with guarding a special installation.... The zombies.... Their moans.. Their screams... Their feeding.... One way to stop them was to shot 2 or 3 of em down... Then the rest would start eating the dead... When that happens, we just chucked a grenade in their location.... or just throw firebombs at em.... They don't notice being burned.... What do we have?? Fleshless bones.... The worst moments was shooting down zombies who were people you knew.... People you loved.... People who helped you... Your neighbours.... Your family.... Your friends.... God knows how I hoped for something to wake me up.... The thing is, I was fully aware that I was dreaming, yet, at the same time, I was helpless.... I can't do anything but go with the flow and hope I survive till I woke up.....

Then.... Came the end...... All of a sudden, fast forward in time, and we have special forces bringing in zombies to special labs to be cured and dezombified.... Note that only those zombies that still retain full human form was taken for this procedure.... Those with incomplete limbs or any injuries at all was shot on sight.... There being a possibilty for them to die upon de-zombification, death as a zombie was thought a painless and better mercy for them....
After that, I was in charge as a teacher at the refugee town... In charge of educating the young of their past.... Our past glories.... And our future hope....


All this dream happened in the space of one night....
Weird right..
Weirder still.. I can still recall it clearly now.....







The Fallen...
signing off

Moving On....

I saw you at the wedding....
I wonder.....
What is this tingle in my heart???
What is this familiar feeling???

What happened to my wounds??
are they healed??
I think not....
I'm sure not....

Yet...
Why does this heart throbs????
Is it ready for one more fight???
Is it ready for another battle for survival??

I wonder...
Am I ready??
Am I willing to take the risks??
Risking my heart and soul??

I wonder.....
Is this a sign of moving on??
Or is this just a cruel trick by fate
who is not yet finished toying with me??

I Wonder...
I ponder...







The Fallen...
signing off

Happy Marriage....

I hope my cousin have a got marriage..
I was tired yesterday, hence the lateness of my blog....
Lolz.... What did I told ya??
I got kicked still...
Zzzz....
Even when she's marriaged, she manages to kick me...
Damn, man...

Btw, the ceremony was good...
One shot only and it was 'Kabul'....
Good for her......
And him too...
Guess my new 'cousin' is nice.... He can take my teasing well....
Even responded with his own teasing.....
Nice guy...

Lolz.... The food was nice!!
Nyum!!!!
I ate.... But not much.. No appetite I guess....
Too tired maa.....
Had to play chauffeur for my mum and sis d night before....
Damn tiring.... But can't complain...

Btw... The wedding..
Nice..
Gave hope.. Touching..
Hehehe.... Even took a picture wit my cousin before her akad.... The pic showed her trying to punch me...
Hillarious man!!!!
Imagine a bride punching someone with her fists...
LOLZ!!!!








The Fallen...
signing off

In The Midst of Worry....

In the midst of everything....
I can look forward to the future..

Tomorrow my cousin is getting married..
Kak Nina... Lolz..
I still remember getting slapped by her coz being rude....
And now she's getting married....
Seems like yesterday she used to give me rides on her motorcycle and we would go to the shop to buy coke or some sweets....

Heh...
And me being me, I teased her to no end yesterday bout her impending marriage and impending 'Puan' label....
My reward??
A kick by her right at the shins....
OUCH....
Damn she still has her touch alright...
I've been helping out.... Erecting the canvas....
Carrying the things....
After this... Will need to help at the Dewan some more....

My point, in case some of ya got lost in the phrases..
Even in the middle of my problem, at least I can look at my cousin, feel happy for her...
And maybe.... Feel hope myself too...
Strange... What effect wedding has on others...
Btw, her Akad is tomorrow.... Lolz....
I'm going to tease her again tomorrow....
Regardless of being labeled a clown....
Thats a perk of being the youngest in my generation,
HEHEHE......

I wonder..... Marriage....
Responsibility....
Trust....
Stability....
Root....
Important values and ingredients....

Lets hope its a happy marriage for her...
Hehehe...... I'm going to have some fun teasing after this....
Hmmmm... Have to be careful bout that kick though....
Heh....,






The Fallen...
signing off